So I have been reading Passion and Purity by Elisabeth Elliot for a while now and was having a really difficult time getting through it but yesterday as i was reading i understood why. Before last night my heart wasn't really open to what it had to say but in light of recent events it pierced me. I was convicted of my own self deception and hopes for the future. Giving it over to God fully was a relief, yet its not easy already. in the hours since coming to this realization i have had to make deliberate choices that were different yesterday. Im excited about reading more and prepared to listen closely to God's voice.