New Emotion

Last Night I experienced a completely foreign emotion to me. I was suddenly overcome with a strong loneliness and emptiness in which I could see and hear those around me but felt so distant. As if this wasn't enough, Satan furthered his attack by making me feel just as distant from God as I did from the people surrounding me. I cannot even fully describe how I felt and don't know that i ever will. I immediately began to call on the Lord, I knew he was there, wrapping his arms around me but I still felt helpless. After many tears and a night with friends my still darkened spirit clung to Psalms 42:5-6 and a song my dear friend sang, without even knowing how appropriate it was.

"Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.
My soul is downcast within me;
therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar."

The Lord began to slowly come back into reach and I was able to reclaim the JOY I have been given by my Savior! Today I can still feel some of the emotions that overtook me last night but I am clinging to My Savior and the truth I have in him, for he draws close to me when i draw close to him.

I pray that I never again feel this way, and that you never feel this way, but if you do, remember to cling to the truth and your Savior because He is there.